start afresh

I really wanted to start afresh.

I am really frustrated with myself, the shit that I had gone unwittingly into, and the hurt that I caused myself. I asked myself this depressing question, why am I gone into a similar case again?

There is a lesson that I didn't learn properly and now, I want to back out. OUt of this stupid work, out of this hurt and misery. Oh Allah, help me. now Wati is here lying on the bed behind me, but I feel the assurance from her. dunno why.